Here's to a Happy 2008!

If New Year's Eve (with its run-up) and New Year's Day are any indication, 2008 should be a breeze filled with success, fun, laughter and the company of loved ones. Hope the Big Guy up there is listening :)

I don't make new year resolutions because I know I wouldn't keep them, but I do think of things I should consciously do differently. This weekend has been one of mild contemplation and lots of rest. Im going to need it because the year already looks like it is straining against its straight-jacket to come at me! That could mean either of two things- I'll be so busy and harried that the memory of this blog will be obliterated from my mind or the year will be pleasantly eventful giving me a fountainhead of topics I would be glad to write about.

This post was meant to pip the procrastination demon and to log the first post in the first week. More later as the year unfolds. Wish everyone a wonderful year ahead!

Confessions of a Watering Can

I am very emotional and have a very clear idea of what I want and what I don't. Therefore when the tiniest of things goes awry I feel the pinch. Pinch by pinch it builds up until enough angst has accumulated to make me feel caged even in an open field with my favorite people. It is at times like these that crying is cathartic. The feeling of warm tears rolling down my cheeks is nice in a way that I cannot explain. It's not just the tears but an outflow of all the negativity in me at that point in time- sadness, unused energy, pent up emotions, frustration, guilt, feelings of not being loved/cared for enough, exhaustion, homesickness, illness. The mass of negativity ebbs out and leaves me feeling calm and composed. While I hate letting go like that in front of others and prefer to get it over with in private, there are some whose mere presence calms me. With them I can be my worst- weepy, childish, indecisive, cynical and blue, jealous, catty, unreasonable, selfish and demanding- and still have their respect. Their faith in me is what has made me who I am and they mean the world to me. If there's one thing in the world that can really break me, it is losing one of them. God, please never let that day come.