Catch 22

Its strange how you have the least to say when the most is going on in life. Time ofcourse, is a factor- before you look for the time to put down your thoughts, you need time to put your thoughts in order. Otherwise you don't really feel; you just experience. This is especially true when you're an impulsive/ spontaneous person who reacts a certain way to certain things and then needs to step back and analyze the reasons behind it. A friend once said, "If you had time to feel sad, you weren't busy enough". Simple but true. Sometimes the 'drowning in work' is unintentional- like now- and that's what gets my goat. It's equivalent to the feeling of chaos and overwhelming pressure an order- crazy OCD patient would feel if their home were ransacked. These days I find myself in a situation where I have no time to think about things unrelated to work and I detest it. Especially at such a time in life when I should be wearing those famous rose tinted glasses, going shopping with friends, flying home for fittings, finalizing menus and themes and planning trips to sunny locales! I know I can consciously cut down on the time and effort at work but not achieving results would be equally vexing. Damned if I do, damned if I don't!